I am supposed to be online shopping for a dishwasher. But I am the one that imposed that "supposed to" so I guess it doesn't mean that much. Because here I am, reading blog after blog, wondering how on earth I've missed so many posting by my online friends. Clearly needing/longing for connection to the world outside this one that is supposed to be real. There are so many things in the world that make me sad so very deeply, things that hit close enough to home to be understandably saddening, but other things that I should be able to shrug off, but just can't.
Feeling grateful for my online pals, and that their lives go on and I can catch up when I need to. And hoping that I can shake the feeling of being pulled in too many directions, and dissappointment in myself for allowing such tugging and not knowing my own mind well enough to be clear about what I want and to stand my ground.
The deer love tulips, but haven't taken a bite of these yet.
I hear you! here's a couple of pema quotes (which i need myself now; i'm getting stressed about actually maybe working again soon).
ReplyDelete"We think that the point is to pass the test or to overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don't really get solved. They come together and they fall apart."
"To be fully alive, fully human, and completely awake is to be continually thrown out of the nest."